It's been a while!

Have you ever taken a step back and then feel too nervous to step forward again?

This is where I am at right now!

I took a little unplanned break and all of a sudden everything seems so big and so dark I don’t really know how to return. My heart is breaking for all of the people affected in Gaza and all those affected in Israel. Whatever I try to say doesn’t ever really feel enough.

I’m trying to just get back on the horse and write again for a little bit of release. I hope to do a few small posts until I get back in the swing of things again.

My family and I moved house early September and I knew that it would be a big task but I don’t think I comprehended how exhausting the aftermath would be. From the unpacking, not having childcare for a whole month, as well as my husband and I juggling full time jobs. Needless to say I didn’t have a lot of time for anything else.

The first few weeks just feel a bit of a blur looking back. We had lots of family coming over and chipping in to help care for the little one, but it also meant we didn’t have our evenings to sort, tidy, relax. However grateful I am for all those who helped. I’m also very happy to have my daughter in childcare so I don’t have to make 3 meals a day and organise activities to keep her busy.

I’ve had a few friends who have also moved recently and it has taken a lot more mental effort than I expected to not compare myself to how quickly they unpacked and have already started painting rooms and hanging pictures. We are yet to even pick a paint swatch that we like!

So this month unfortunately I’ve read next to nothing. Naively I thought that on my 6am train into the city I would be powering through books and my energy levels aren’t quite there yet.

I’m going to launch bookclub on the 1st of Nov (a little later than planned) if you have any books you would love to suggest let me know!